my heart shatter into pieces :(

my shitty life !
I'm really shatter .
I can't feel my heart beat .
I can't normally breath .
It's because of you .
you destroy my whole life that full of happiness and smile .
you came into my life and now you leave me alone without say anything .
I'm disappointed with what you've done to me .
and now what should I do ?
how to forget you and start to enjoying my world like before ?
please tell me !
don't shut your mouth like this !
I don't know what to do .
I can't face the world right now .
I wish I get amnesia and then I forgot everything .
really I love you even you just make me your doll :(